Terms and Agreements

I’ve come to terms with our love. It was deep and meaningful. I fell and never got up. It was a selfish and wrong kind of love but it was our love. Only ours. And now, it’s over. I know that I will never be able to see you and walk away. Even seeing someone who looks like you, I miss you all over again. I’m never gonna be strong enough to say I hate you or I’m completely over it. But I guess that’s how first loves happen.

Shipwrecked

It’s torn me down, made me forget every carefree thought and feeling. Every laugh out of pure happiness and gratitude. I use to be a person I was proud of, thankful for. Then one day, all the tears and sorrow washed me away. I’m shipped wrecked and broken and I don’t even know how I got here. Even worse, it feel as if I have forgotten how to swim.

Temperatures Rising

I’m sick of missing someone who has me as there second thought. Remembering memories of us that aren’t even in your head anymore, never mind your heart.
But here I am.
Heart on the floor wishing you’d finally care enough to pick it up.
But here I am again.
The one who loved too much, talking to myself.

Weather

I missed you so much today
The memory of when you said you loved me
The beach on my favorite day
I drove by your house and that spot because the sun reminded me of our carefree days together and the way you smile
To just have that day back
To throw all my rational beliefs out the window
To hold your hand and make you laugh once more.
But no.
The pain of today brings me back.
Reminds me of how you let me go.
How you made sure I was never yours but you, always mine.
The tears and the silent conversations come back
My sunny day is now cloudy and gray.